Sabrina

I'm a dreamer. I was born one. On top of that I was raised on Turner Classic Movies which only encouraged my "rose colored glasses", romantic ideals, and dreams. It's safe to say I am a girl who is firmly planted in the clouds. You must first realize my life, in my mind, is from the perspective of Audrey Hepburn in the classic, Sabrina. I think I found myself when I watched this movie.

Sabrina much like myself when I was younger was easily forgotten and never the popular choice. As a chauffeur's daughter she was a perfectly "average girl". Raised in the garage just above the extraordinary life of two brothers Linus (Humphrey Bogart) and David. They had the life of parties and fortune. She fled to Paris for cooking school (Oh how I wish!!!) to escape. Hoping to forever forget her foolish dream of being in love and marrying the charming younger brother David. She returned from Paris years later a "new woman". She was ready to be extraordinary. But that old haunting dream bumped into her at the train station. David. Sabrina left all resolution and gumption behind as she drove off with David from that train station.

While pursuing the dream of David a few hap-hazardous events caused her to stop and consider her options. Thankfully she veered course and realized the best option. Humphrey Bogart. David's brother. Lets face it Humphrey is always better. She got better and then some.

S: "I'm so ashamed, Linus."
L: "You have no reason to be."
S: "I've known you just a few days, really. And I've been in love with David all my life. I can't understand what's the matter with me. I went away to grow up and I thought I had grown up. I guess I haven't, really. I just got myself a new hairdo that's all." Sabrina 1954

Often we get sidetracked with a good option when really what God wants for us is the best.

That is how my relationship with God is. Since day one he has taken a wallflower girl of the world, adopted her, and remade her into something extraordinary. Taking her silly "good dreams" and turning them into something beautiful and better. With Christ I get Humphrey Bogart. Even though I occasionally pursue David dreams and make a mess, when I hand it back over to Him, He makes something a million times better. Talk about the incredible grace of God.

What I'm trying to explain is a theory I've come up with in my walk with Christ. "The shelf". I call it a shelf but it's really the alter of God. It's a cluttered shelf filled with ideas of being a missionary in far off lands, a wife, a mother, working for the UN, my art history degree, my love of gourmet cooking, non profit ideas, and so much more (I've just exposed my wildest dreams, be kind to me). It holds my relationships, desires, and dreams that are broken, abandoned, forgotten, loved, cherished, and hoped for. Some of these will end up getting dusted off and returned better than I could have dreamed (Humphrey), others given away (not mine to have), and some will be trashed and burned up (It's just not the will of God, AKA David). I have to put them there because I know God needs to deal with them. They are not mine to hold on to. He needs to do His will. His ways are better then my ways.

Whatever you are hoping for or dreaming about submit it to God. Let Him have His way. Don't get too caught up with your vision. But rather ask for Christ's vision. Stop and consider what he his doing and veer course if necessary. If you delight yourself in Him, He will give you the desires of your heart.

Praying for you and I that God would take all our Davids and give us Humphreys.